我的22嵗生日.................

22嵗的農曆生日……

外婆的死忌……

他們是故意選擇那天逼走外婆的嗎?

一切就好象預謀好的樣子……

不懂，不想懂……

懂了又如何?

又沒有插手的餘地……

對我來説，一切都太突然了。

一切的發生，就在那麽幾天裏...

還記得幾天前，他說他喜歡我，他承認了他是我男朋友。

幾天后說對不起，他沒有辦法跟我在一起，因爲或許他還想著她。

過去不是都只是過去嗎?

還會有回頭的可能嗎?

或許別人跟我不同吧。

我不回頭。

你不珍惜我，給足你一切機會。

不要，就算了。

然後過幾天就農曆生日了，外婆就走了。

明明這幾天我都好累，

明明我就很需要你的陪，

明明我就那麽需要你的安慰...

可是最後卻是我厚著臉皮去找你聊天，還要賠笑。

你知道嗎...

我累了。

星期五是我的陽曆生日...

星期六送外婆出殯……

永遠不會有人懂我的心情。

不是要很親才會有傷心的感覺的，你懂嗎?

還記得她走得前幾天我才剛剛去醫院看她的。

還記得她那天剛剛接pipe的……

還記得她說不出話，還醒著，還認得出我的...

還記得那天我叫她阿嫲，她還會應我的...

還記得那天她很後悔的流淚...

還記得那天我們去看她，她還會笑...

可是才過那麽的2天，她就走了...

兩天前還看著她醒著的...

兩天后她就躺在棺材裏了...

你永遠都不會想象得到我收到消息的感受……

整個早上在發呆...

我真的不能...

我真的接受不到其實...

誰說心跳弱就該拿掉pipe的...

我心臟也沒力...難道我也要走了嗎?

試著不在她的靈堂上想起她還在的一切...

試著在她的靈堂上不去想那些壞人所做的一切...

試著讓自己開心一些...

單身就是全部要靠自己，對嗎?

我知道了...

謝謝你讓我暫時依賴了那麽一下下。

謝謝你陪我的那段時期，很開心。

謝謝阿嫲讓我懂了某些道理...

阿嫲！不要怕~ 你已經脫離了他們的魔掌了！

加油！我們也會加油！努力的活下去！

♥ Shayne Ward - No Promises ♥

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, through Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

♥~Valentine's Day in Years of 2012~♥

手指头竖起来算一算...

脑袋清醒起来想一想...

长这么大，好像是第一次和我的BF一起过2月14日的情人节...

呵呵~♥

其实，去年的生日也是第一次收花 ♥

真的很开心...

谢谢你嚄 ♥

请原谅我没准备情人节礼物给你.. T_T

可是，我会补送给你的，请耐心等待嚄 （需要点时间呢）

呵呵~♥

而你送给我的礼物，我也很喜欢 ♥

♥ 照片来了♥

呵呵~♥

笨蛋 ♥ 你是我的专属笨蛋 ♥

虽然米有什么烛光晚餐，米有什么惊喜

可是，我还是很开心 ♥

所以，请不要道歉！

因为我都米有介意什么啊！

烛光晚餐可以别日去享受 ♥

不需要在大日子和别人凑热闹~

而且，每对情侣都烛光晚餐都收花啊~

没趣呢！

我想要特别一点的~

你别的日子再送好了 ♥

我想要每个人都羡慕

呵呵~♥

所以

♥ 谢谢你 ♥

♥ 爱你啦 ♥

*好想强调*

♥ 那闪闪的是Swarovski 水晶 ♥

虽然不是真的钻石

但....总好过假的钻石来的珍贵！

呵呵 ♥

Peace

Yes, I get what you meant


So I return to you all your freedom


You're not mine, And I'm not yours any and anymore


I will try very hard to forget about you and step to the future that i want


Do not hesitate whatever i've done


This will always be me, I'm Shirley. :)

Lost

i lost something important in my ♥ life 


i lost you.. Mr Eyo..


You're no longer the one who i love from the beginning anymore 


Do you still remember the passion when we get together?


Do you still remember how we met and dated first time?


Do you still remember the way to come my house?


I really found that i lost you...


I've cried every night..


Every time when i wake up in the midnight..


I will think about you..


But i know, it's not possible that you will think about me..


Am i right?


We are not match at all..


You're Degree Student, And i'm just a loser in STPM and a stupid OL..


What a big distance and difference we have..


Few years later you'll be a degree holder and i'm still an OL..


I hate myself..


I've promised you that i'll try my best to take the course and continue my study..


i'll definitely do it with my best..♥


I'll put in all my effort just to reach my goal and my target of my future life..


I'll tell myself that i will not bother you too much ♥


Who am i? I'm Miss Shirley. ♥

Plan

There's my plan. I'll be sitting on the STPM in November. Then, I'll start my working life in KL in December 2010. Probably will work for 1 year and do my saving properly. Within the year, I'll get all the bridal make up information in KL. This is because I'm so interested on the course and that's my future career. Working as a makeup artist or help those pretty bride to make up is my dream. I'll put all my effort to success my dream. I'll always cheer myself, and I won't beat by anyone. Then after I get enough saving, I will place my first step in the academy.. I believe on my effort and I trust myself that I can do it !!

Self-criticism

Seriously, i think i don't have any friends around me. As when anything happened on me, nobody can help me. And those people will only blame me. What had happened on me, all my fault. Coz, there're none of their business, of cause they won't care about it.. It's me!! All my fault.. I'm the one who play on it and caused the effect myself~ I told myself.. I could rather believe on myself and trust myself that everything will be fine to me.. I could rather trust on the doctor who will help me to settle all my problems.. I could just stay with my own style and be more independent that i can.. I won't try to depend on anyone anymore~ I'll learn how to overcome all the problem myself and I won't depend on Ms Loh. As I know she's feeling disgusting on helping me.. I knew it. Please don't be worry about it anymore.